Have you ever...
...looked at yourself in the mirror and saw something you didn't expect to see at all?
Like a smile that you didn't think looked like it did.
Or the eyes.
Did you ever think, " So this is what I look like when I laugh?"
Or, "When someone compliments my eyes, these are the eyes they are talking about?"
Or when you see your growing belly with the tiny Bundle of Joy growing bigger inside every day, do you wonder, "Is this really me? Is this really happening to me? Is this what I am destined for?"
How much do I love you?
Wouldn't have done what I did for anyone else in the world but you.
Thats how much.
When people ask me how I feel....
...I don't know what to say.
Judge me all you want.
But I don't know how to feel.
30 and 8 and ??
Landmarks.
Some that could have waited.
Some that I just couldn't wait for.
And some that others couldn't wait for.
I feel as old as I now am. I probably look it. I haven't accomplished all that I wanted to before I turned 30. But I'm happy with whatever I was able to. According to some, I'm way behind for some of life's accomplishments. But those that really know me, know that I could have waited. I'm happy, terrified and nervous. But I don't think I will ever regret it. And that makes it OK.
As for the eight, it couldn't have flown by faster. But like they say, if time flew by, that means, time flew by happily. Its the miserable times that feel like the longest. Its been eight and I wish for an eternity more.
And the rest remains to be seen.
One day....
One day you'll wake up and all of life's milestones will be behind you. Sweet sixteen, graduation, wedding, kids, grand kids. All you'll have are yesterdays and very few tomorrows.
And then...
Pink Laddoos
As I sit in my new favourite corner and watch the wind and the rain outside, I wonder. About the future. About change.
A gust of wind.
A slow breeze.
Some rain.
Some tears.
Some snow.
Some time.
Eternity.
Love.
Change.
Constant.
Tradition.
More change.
Night.
Then day.
Happy.
Then sad.
Good.
Then bad.
More good.
Kisses.
You.
For you.
Whatever.
Us.
Forever.
